This was hands down the hardest semester of my life. While I was in difficult classes, it wasn't so much school that made this semester so hard for me. It was my personal life and the battle within me that made it the absolute hardest thing I've gone through in a long time.
I've been through countless challenges, stressful situations and life changes, but I've never experienced something so heartbreaking and hard as I did this January. The second day of the semester (my personal first day of classes), my boyfriend broke up with me. I then had to work two hours later from 8 p.m. to 8 a.m. as an RA doing rounds throughout the buildings, holding office hours and responding to any calls we may have had throughout the night. I was devastated. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that someone would say, "I love you" one day and end it all the next. It only hurt me more when I discovered he lied about every reason he gave for breaking it off. He had actually been pursing someone new before he broke it off with me. Saying you didn't have time for a relationship really meant you didn't have time for two relationships.
"What was wrong with me that he needed someone else? Where did I go wrong? Is it something I said? Something I did? Is she better than me?" continued to run through my head every single day. I asked every "why?" question but no one could give an answer that resolved the internal conflict in my head.
Those first few weeks of the semester was full of awful thoughts, image issues and tears. I hated waking up in the morning to go to class. I hated waking up in the morning to do anything. I became focused on all the bad things. I couldn't sleep at night anymore, and I rarely ate a full meal. If it wasn't for my amazing coworkers (now my closest friends), I don't know how I would have healed.
Just a simple, "come over" message from a coworker brought me out of my room and into an environment where I was surrounded by people who soon became a major part of my support team. Throughout the entire semester, this amazing staff, whether they knew it or not, helped me gain strength again. My boss talked me through ever bad thought or question I had stuck in my head. I slowly began to heal, something I never thought I'd be able to do.
For those who continue to bring up my ex, the break up, or the other girl, PLEASE stop trying to talk to me or bring it up. Talking about it at this point just puts me right back to that night, and I'd rather forget. And yes, I realize I'm talking about it right now, but this is the last stage of healing for me.
Side note: For those who made fun of me or made comments this semester when I would sleep all day when I didn't have classes, or it was the weekend, I was sleeping because that was easier than dealing with my thoughts and emotions during that time. Please think about what someone might be going through before making a comment about it.
If you've reached this point, you're probably curious where the "comeback" part of the title comes in. Well, we've officially reached the fun part of this blog where I'm going to recap the amazing things that happened to me this semester!
To start, on February 16th, I was honored by the Women’s Center and the Women’s, Gender, and Sexuality Studies Program as a leader during their annual event, “Celebrating Women: Leaders On and Off the Court”. This semester I also added the Women's, Gender, and Sexuality Studies Certificate to my coursework.
On March 7th, I was inducted into the Dr. Joseph A. Burke National Residence Hall Honorary chapter at Ohio University. NRHH is the premiere honorary supported by the leading international organization advocating for the interests and welfare of residence hall students, while also providing opportunities for their personal growth and development.
The comeback didn't just stop there. I was offered and accepted a PR and Content internship with the Greater Cleveland Aquarium. I am beyond excited for this amazing experience and opportunity to grow outside of classes this summer.
Yep, The comeback continued on April 2nd when I was awarded the generous Kay Murphy Price Scholarship at the E.W. Scripps School of Journalism awards banquet. Kay Murphy Price was a Scripps alum who had a 33-year career as a feature writer with the Columbus Dispatch and Miami Herald. She was also an artist, winning awards for her poetry, and gourmet cooking, and dabbling with a paint brush. She established this scholarship for students with an interest in newspaper or magazine journalism.
Lastly, on April 13th, I was recognized by Housing & Residence Life for my Outstanding Contributions for Community as a Resident Assistant at the annual Student Staff Appreciation Banquet.
Among many other things that happened this semester, like gaining new friends, growing as an individual, making the Dean's list for the 6th time, or being asked to be the maid of honor in my sister's wedding, I came out as a stronger, whole person.
As for right now, I'm currently waiting for awards and chapter levels for Her Campus to be announced. I am also waiting and looking forward for my summer classes and internship to begin in a few weeks.
The following photos show the beauty of Ohio University and Athens, along with many other amazing moments from this past semester.